When reading other mommy blogs, I often get the sense that the thought process behind starting a blog went something like this:
“Well! I certainly have it all together here! My laundry is all caught up, the dishwasher (and the sink!) are empty, dinner is in the crockpot, I can’t find any more dust bunnies and I am doing a FANTABULOUS job raising my kids right now, so—ya’know what? I better start a blog so I can help other women have it all together, too!!!”
If that is you, I really am not criticizing. My hat is off to you and I am so pleased for you that you’re in that situation. It’s a great feeling, I am sure—I’ve just never experienced it. But based on the high I get from occasionally accomplishing just one of those tasks, I’m sure you do feel great and I appreciate your willingness to share.
However, that is not me, not at all. Not even close. Just ask my mom (who is a pretty awesome homemaker and housekeeper).
I am starting a blog because I have things I want to share even though I don’t have it all together. My story feels a bit more like,
“Well, I got the kitchen cleaned up last night but somehow the sink, table, and counter are full again; my toddler is eating leftovers off the floor where she threw her meal; my laundry is folded (but it’s spread out all over the basement); that seemingly perfect meal I had planned for tonight is going to take three uninterrupted hours to make and the kids aren’t napping; and the brilliant activity I wanted to spend the morning doing with my kids totally bombed. Just keep going.”
And I really, really hope there are some others out there who can relate.
I’m not saying all this to imply that my life is overwhelming drudgery (or to seem like a lazy slacker). I love my life, I love what I do. But the fact is, most of my life is spent trying to do what I can (and must!), but learning contentment, humility, and joy in the midst of my failures, the unfinished tasks, and the never ending list of possibilities for how I could be using my time.
Many of you out there reading this are certainly better housekeepers, better cooks, better mothers, better spouses, better followers of Christ than I am. And I sincerely mean it when I say, “Good for you!” That’s where your journey has brought you. This is my journey.
In this life, I am responsible for tackling the work before me. We each have work that’s been set before us. And we each come to that work from where we are in that moment–with our unique biological makeup, experiences, interests, attitudes, etc. As Eugene Peterson phrased it in The Message (his translation of the Bible into contemporary English):
Make a careful exploration of who you are and the work you have been given, and then sink yourself into that. Don’t be impressed with yourself. Don’t compare yourself with others. Each of you must take responsibility for doing the creative best you can with your own life…[T]he one who plants in response to God, letting God’s Spirit do the growth work in him, harvests a crop of real life, eternal life.” (Galations 6:4-5, 8)
Our value doesn’t come from how we rank against others; it comes from God. Our task is to orient ourselves toward Him and do the work at hand.
And that’s why I blog. This is my journey—dirty, imperfect, warts and all. In the midst of my attempts to finish the laundry, this blog is a way for me to stop and reflect on all that I am grateful for, all that challenges and concerns me, all the lessons I’m learning, and all the ways I see Him each day. Thanks for joining me!!Our value doesn’t come from how we rank against others; it comes from God. Our task is to orient ourselves toward Him and do the work at hand. Click To Tweet