And let us not grow weary of doing good,for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.So then, as we have opportunity,let us do good to everyone,and especially to those who are of the household of faith.
I’ve been feeling weary lately. I don’t know if I would say I’m weary of doing good, as much as it is I’m weary and don’t feel like doing good.
There are multiple reasons for this, none of which are particularly important or substantial: tired of a messy house; tired of wrestling with perplexing issues; tired of trying to be understanding; tired of cooking; tired of solving the world’s problems. Nothing big. 😉 That and a 15 month-old who only naps 1.5 hrs a day and I’m tired.
What do you do when you’re weary and discouraged, frustrated and tired? I tend to blame others, be short-tempered, and make poor choices (like staying up too late or ignoring work), which, of course, compounds the problem. It’s not all entirely negative; I also gravitate toward finding a creative outlet, getting outside in nature, and losing myself in a story (usually a movie but sometimes a book).
This verse, however, points out a good place to go and a proper response for when I’m weary. (This site has a wonderful arrangement of this verse to music, which helps me keep it in my mind.) Weariness can turn into complaining and navel-gazing so quickly, I have to remind myself to (at least try) to pull my gaze outward and look for ways to extend grace and charity to people around me.
Those closest to me often bear the brunt of my impatience and frustration; my weariness is a poor excuse for losing my temper with my family or ignoring their needs (especially since we’ve had sick and injured girls, one thing after another, for weeks!). I definitely needed increased patience and attention at home. Believe me when I say it didn’t always happen, but we had a pretty good week overall.
We had exceptionally beautiful fall weather, so outside time was a priority. (That, along with the 30+ bags of leaves that accumulate in our backyard was reason enough for me.) It was good to be outside, to accomplish some work raking leaves, and especially, to see my daughters’ delight. They are God’s beloved image bearers, entrusted to me for this time to speak His truth into their life, just as they teach me daily about Him. Seeing their excitement in the leaves and dirt and wind helped me clear my mind and refocus.
It takes perseverance. God calls me to love and “do good” to my family, and to His family. It doesn’t always come easily. But just because something is difficult or doesn’t come “naturally” certainly doesn’t mean I should disregard it as the goal.
This season will pass (although why weary seasons always have to coincide with holidays is beyond me). There will be time for being busy, time for celebrating, time for sleeping…oh, wait—that one may never come again. In the meantime, though, in my weariness, let me persevere in doing good—in being patient, in showing kindness, in extending grace, and in loving.